Hi! I'm single and decided to finally dive into the lifestyle. I'm fairly new... one full swing, been to a few parties, and have a couple of boyfriends. Married men in open relationships in which I play and have developed friendships with (I've even become friends with the wives).

However, I'm starting to feel a way because these men have taken a great interest in me. I by no means, want to overstep my boundaries. Definitely not my intentions. But one couple is open to becoming poly, if I want, because the husband has developed strong feelings for me. The other husband has also developed strong feelings for me when it was only supposed to be fun - I go with him to parties and events because his wife isn't really into going all of the time. While I'm being catered to physically and emotionally by married men, my dating life is in shambles. My personality doesn't change, but dealing with single men is hard and emotionally draining. I understand it's easier for the married men to like me for me, because its simpler... they aren't dating to find someone to build with. I just wish I had better luck finding a partner. I don't always want to be viewed as the shiny new artifact in the museum. It gets kind of lonely sometimes. I joined the lifestyle to learn more about myself. I've met some great people and I've gained confidence in ways I've never imagined. I'm grateful for the experiences. I have become a better communicator and better in establishing boundaries. I'm grateful for the personal growth. But I don't want to experience loneliness.

Ladies, how do you stay grounded? How do you deal with such emotions? I hope I made sense.

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